I have no freaking clue. That’s why I’m asking you.
Anyway, I’m asking because there are times I feel like I’m playing make-believe. And at some level I know that I am. From A Course in Miracles perspective it’s all make-believe, but because I think that I’m here and that I’ve written a book, I’ll go on.
I feel unworthy. Like whoa. Who the heck am I to think I can just waltz into some contest and write a novel? And then get it published? Is this some kind of joke? I can’t seem to stick to any sort of health regime, but I can whip a book out willy-nilly? What the heck?
And then I remember that lesson from the Course: I have given everything I see all the meaning it has for me.
I have made writing books easy and maintaining weight loss difficult. I have. This is what I have scripted for myself.
So at what point am I just going to stop the inner whine and just go with the flow? Because what I really want is Peace with a capital P. I’m not messing around here. I’m not taking it super seriously, but my goal is clear: Peace, Love, Letting go.
And so I’m not sure what makes a writer…maybe just the fact that you write, enjoy it and others do too? Maybe just calling yourself one is enough?
What I do know is that a writer is not who I am. Who I am is We. And Who we are is Perfection.
The rest are just silly details which, if I let them, serve only to distract me…and yet also, if I let them, lead me home.
I’m ready. Mostly. Let’s go 🙂