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I Walk With You

I don’t get disappointed with others in my life too often.  For the most part, I have compassion and can see them for the light that they are.  It’s when I put them on a pedistal that I get into trouble.  There’s nowhere for them to go but down…nothing for them to do but fall.

And that’s not fair.

I know that there’s greatness within me.  I know that I have so much wisdom to impart, so much love to share!  And sometimes it scares me.  I sometimes feel overwhelmed by it.  So what do I do?  I take all of that awesomeness, wrap it up and give it to someone else…only I don’t tell them so.  I pretend that the superwoman I am is actually her…just her, this other person outside of me.  That way I don’t have to deal with it.  That way I don’t have to fail.  That way I protect myself.

And wow…that’s so unfair.

Because the truth is we’re all amazing.  We are all divine, filled with purpose and oozing love.  And if I don’t recognize that, I cheat humankind.  I rob the world of its potential.

And that ain’t cool.

So I offer my hand.  You can step down from that place I put you.  I see you now before me and look into your eyes.  And here you cannot disappoint and I cannot fail.  We are the same.  I walk with you.  This work we do, we do together.  We light up the world!  We are the same.

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After a Binge ~ A Conversation

I  can’t believe I did it again.  What was I thinking? I am 31 years old! When does it stop??!!

It’s done. Forgive yourself.

What do I do now? I’m a fraud. I’m ridiculous…pathetic. I’m so tempted…

We don’t do that anymore.  You know that.

I’m scared. I’m frightened about what this means. I thought I was beyond this.

You’re going to have moments like this. Forgive yourself. Let love in. Let me in. Listen to me.

I can barely hear you. I need to breathe. I can’t hear you when I breathe deeply. This room feels so small.

I’ll wait for you. You’re worth waiting for.

This is what darkness feels like. It’s so much more than the absence of light; it is the absence of life! I don’t know who I am anymore.

You are love.  You are beauty. You are compassion.

I can hear you. I know what you say is true, but I can’t do it right now.  I just can’t do it right now…

You’ll discover I am a model of patience.

How can I pretend to help anyone else when I can’t help myself? Who do I think I am?

You are an innocent child of God who has forgotten, for a moment, who she is. You help countless others with your honesty, your kindness and your wisdom. Remember where you were and then see how far you have come. This is a lesson in forgiveness my child, nothing more.  You are learning well.

I cannot cry about this anymore. There’s too much to do. I’m a mother, a wife, a friend.

Be a friend to yourself.

I hear you.

Ask for help.

Do I really deserve it though after what I’ve done?

Yes. Ask for help.

“Please help me remember who I am. May I forgive myself. May I begin to see myself with the eyes of Love. May my hunger be fed, my mind cleansed, my spirit renewed.”

And so it is…

I feel it. It’s starting.  This is what light feels like….a gentle swaddle of Love.  I remember  now.  It’s good to be back.

Danielle, you never left.

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