“I have to know I can be happy without you,” I say quietly.
He tilts his head and smiles. “You would be.”
And I believe him. He is the one who knows me best.
The world’s idea of love can make you crazy…if you let it. I’m embarking on a new idea…a different framework. Though romance makes my heart swell and quickens my breath, I know I am not a body. Bodies are sneaky…giving you glimpses of pleasure mixed with weeks of woe.
I will skate along and sing the song, but my mind will play a different tune. I choose to remember who I was before the guilt, before the shame. And no longer will I blame. I let go.
Perhaps it is not about being happy without him, but happy…just happy. With an open mind and a decision to be kind, I am ready. Aligned with love, below and above, I make peace with life. I am ready.